A Departure From Lisbon Is Not a Vacation Requirement
I stood in the hospital corridor, leaning over my harp to adjust a tuning peg, when a nurse-a woman with a very kind, very direct face-tapped me on the shoulder and pointed downward. My fly had been open since breakfast. I had played for three families in two different wards, nodding sagely while they wept or smiled, all the while presenting a gap in my dignity that I had not even felt. It is a specific kind of humiliation: not the loud, crashing kind, but the quiet realization that you have been moving through the world with a fundamental piece of your architecture unzipped, and no one told you because they assumed it was simply part of the scenery.
This is how we live with geography sometimes. We walk around with gaps in the system, and we stop noticing the draft. For years, I believed that the “Lisbon pilgrimage” was a mandatory rite of passage for anyone in northern Portugal who wanted to see the world. I was wrong. I had accepted a structural failure as a personal necessity. I thought the exhaustion was part of the price of the ticket, a kind of secular penance you paid before you were allowed to touch the sand in Sal or Cancun.

